Welcome to what I call life...... This page is dedicated to my very dear late daughter Kandice - pictured here - who was my right arm.... I haven't blogged since I was in college as it was a requirement in one of my classes. But am going to give it a go now for I have found that after life really happens..... in a harsh and crushing way, a new realization takes over and the need to make contact in some real tangible way begins to haunt me. The need to talk overwhelms me..... but the words won't leave my mouth.... a concrete sentence won't even seep from my brain.... better yet who would listen / who really cares.
It's funny the course life takes when you're not looking or paying close enough attention to the road signs.... or perhaps maybe not interpreting them correctly. I have very few regrets in my life... honestly there are only two I can think of - one doesn't matter in any way or fashion and hasn't impacted my or anyone else's life around me in any way at all. But the other regret is locked up for now.... revealed maybe at some later date, perhaps.
I am the mother of three wonderful children and one grandson, well -- all were wonderful until one died last year. Nothing can make you so lonely, depressed, miserable, distraut, withdrawn, and feeling like a lost soul as having to bury your child. Nothing can ease the pain or fill the void!! Walking around with a hole missing from my soul....
Sorry this first post is so morbid, but its a reflection of my mood and thoughts for today.... I promise all post will not be as this one is...... Kandice I love and miss you terribly...
